:SEEKING TRUTH AMIDST THE CHAOS:
Questions.
Don't question.
Questions.
Stop doubting.
Questions.
Just, because.
Questions.
Because I said so.
Questions.
I have always been one whom asks, "But, why?...But, how?"
I have always been one whose mind races, day and night, with questions of yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
Yesterday: "What would have happened if I had chosen differently?"
Today: "What will be the outcome and consequences of the current situation?"
Tomorrow: "Who will I become?"
Questions.
Always questioning. All silently, of course.
Over the years, I have trained myself, on the outside, to appear: tranquil, composed, collected, undisturbed, humble, meek, patient, clear headed, wise, and overall, "well put together."
Often, taking much pride in this mask.
After all, I did not want to be a product of my environment.
Therefore, opposite shall I be.
Only, there comes a time when the weight of one's mask becomes too heavy a burden to bear.
For me, that time has now come.
With trembling hands, I am choosing to remove my masks.
With a quivering voice, my questions will remain silent no longer.
With wobbling knees and hesitant feet, I am choosing to take hopeful and significant steps onto this unrecognizable, and yet uncharted, road towards truth.
And, I am asking you to join me on my journey.
Currently, my thoughts are chaos.
My emotions are chaos.
My opinions and perceptions are in chaos.
And, no doubt, my writings will reflect as such.
This black and white world that I have been spoon fed is unexpectedly and unapologetically being ambushed by a world of grey; even, by other worlds of black and white.
I am clinging, ever so tightly, to the scarce truths that I still know and believe to be true.
And yet, I still incessantly wrestle with question after question.
What "truths" do I hold simply because of my rural upbringing?
What "truths" do I hold simply because of my denominational educations?
What "truths" do I hold simply because of the current culture?
What "truths" do I hold simply because of the color of my state?
What "truths" do I hold simply because someone of influence or power laid it before me?
What "truths" do I hold simply because of the unchallenged opinions of family and friends?
What "truths" do I hold simply because of the year and version of the Bible that I have been reading?
This journey is for Truth.
Not partisan truth.
Not denominational truth.
Not spoon-fed truth.
Not even self-truth.
Unaltered and unadulterated Truth.
If you are willing to go along with me on this journey, you will more than likely encounter differing insertions of posts. Such as:
Questions.
Current opinions.
Pleas for help and clarification.
Lyrics.
Poems.
Past and present circumstances.
Stories.
Pictures.
Lifting of masks and veils.
Hidden walls and doors.
Dreams.
Hope.
Faith.
And, hopefully, Truth and Love.
I, am a 26-year-old man who is scared, confused, willing, quizzical, imperfect, yet hopeful.
Hopefully, my emotional, spiritual, and mental nakedness will not only help me, but it will help you as well.
If you're ready, let's go.
Amidst The Chaos.
:Let the Journey Continue: